Rollerskate Dub, life without music, I can't

I wish all my worries were about me and my roller skates, dancing out in the corner,, say me feeling great, oh Jah...and den we beat da man down, say we gone leave him red and blue, murder, murder, no man steal my radio, my music...I want to be that guy, dancing on his roller skates--having fun with the girls, says I'm feeling great!!!1

Out on the corner
With my roller skates
Having fun with the girls
Says I'm feeling great woo
In the dark of the night
Street lamps glowing
On full blast is my radio
Radio



Up comes this guy in his flashy car
In his mouth stuck a big cigar
Needed my help said he lost his way
I never heard a word he said
To find some street, said he wanted instructions
So I turned down the music
To point out directions, guess what?
Guy jumped on me messed up my clothes
Smashed and grabbed my radio
Calling all detectives
A criminal at large smoking
A big fat cigar in a flashy car
And think him some superstar

CHORUS
Life life without music
I can't go go no
Life without music I can't go

I'm gonna get him
The last thing I do
Must get a beating
Till him red and blue

Breathe, breathe in the air...

I had to bite my tongue so severely yesterday I almost bit it off. I mean I know living at home was, is and will continue to be difficult, but lord, so days I want to stick a screwdriver in my ear and be done with it all. Of course, I am grateful for everything my folks have done and I in know they are sacrificing their peace and the serenity they deserve to help me out for the next three months but I'm sorry if I feel the need to bitch about it. I mean, its better here in blog-world than actually re-acting to the issue when it occurs because I wouldn't be here for three more months if I went back to that manner of dealing with things. What am I talking about. Its old family issues and of course I'm the last one to be able to properly deal with it all. We were nearing the end of dinner and I just wanted to talk about something interesting I had seen on PBS; no big deal. But it always is a big deal, the thing I found interesting was a manufactured situation to make everyone believe that these archaeologists had made some important discovery when of course, they are just idiots who know thing except how to fool ignorant people. I mean, I wasn't claiming to believe everything these scientist figured out and even amongst themselves, they are not 100% on the answer, its a highly debated issue with no final truth, but I couldn't even get to that point when I was attacked for being an idiot who believes everything I see.

so, i took a deep breath, swallowed the awful words I so wanted to spew out and I went to my room.. But it not over there, I stew for like 30 minutes about it in my room, getting agitated at this continual cycle of unnecessary aggravation that nobody can do anything about--whew..okay, and thats it. I remember some years ago my brother telling me i think too much about the past and its true I do, I've gotten better but i still do it.. I harp on what i should have done, what i could have done and i don't let the issue die, its my goal become more present oriented, not future and definitely not past, but present--its rough, but this very act is helping me to expel the tendency to dwell in my memory--release, fuck it all..relax, breath, 3 months will be here tomorrow and i can start to live my new, real, for the first time, my own real life...for the moment,, breath!

breathing
the mallet

Box Full of Hollow

I'm a box full of hollow, according to multiple tenuous rock, paper, scissor decision makers played against my current alter-ego(the 2x2x2 cardboard box) and the unnecessary pulling out of several of my God-like eyelashes; I'd either be a box full of hollow or a box full of dense things, those are the options. Okay, what the hell am I talking about? Check out "a part-apart's" blog to see what this all pertains too, D. Lang's project. Now I have to make another choice as to how full of hollow I'm going to be or rather, what kind of hollow am I and at first,I thought I'd have to think about this for quite some time but in the last two days, many ideas have been coming to me from all aspects of my life, so thanks D. Lang, for helping the brain to reboot again! This will be fun, I totally grok this project!